DAY THIRTY-TWO
"It's very funny to think na mas mataas pa yung subject na kinatatakutan ko" -Gee

Hershey, I and Ami... Last Day of our Sem... Haha!

So, 1 day na lang... I'm going back to UP nah! Yey! I miss our Institute na, and Our Tambayan.. Haha...

About my grades, haha! It's very funny to think na mas mataas pa yung subject na kinatatakutan ko (Advance Cataloging) sa mga GE subjects ko na feeling ko eh mataas ang makukuha ko... One thing na pinagsisisihan ko, my HUM1 subject... The subject na hindi ko pinapasukan kasi BORING... Errr, madali sana siyang mai-UNO.... Sayang!

Haha, obvious ba na kaka-view ko lang ng grades ko ngayon? Hehe... I was afraid eh... Feeling ko kasi I'll take a removal exam doon sa Cataloging pero noong nalaman ko yung grade ng isang classmate ko, tinignan ko nah! Mahal ko na si Ma'am Nats! Haha...

Ayun, enrollment na sa Monday! I'm so excited!.. hehe

Gee confesses: I voted for a certain person and after a certain conversation kanina, I regret doing it

Hay,,, The reason why I want last minute voting is because some things might change.

And yes! That was exactly what happened. I voted for a certain person and after a certain conversation kanina, I regret doing it... Sana nagkausap na kami before... Anyway, Nandiyan nah... If that was meant to happen, then so be it... I just don't like the fact na, I've said some sarcastic words to someone... I think that person shall understand naman na I've done the entry before the conversation. I've said it tothat person nah... Saka kagaya nga ng sinabi ko, nangyari na eh...

I actually don't know kung bakit maaga akong bumoto, usually naman hindi ako ganun... I think it's meant ngah... Aw!

Well well well, bahala na... I wish walang effect sa taong iyon ung ginawa ko... Sana hindi maka-apekto iyon sa magiging status niya sa game... How I really wish...

Trish blogs: Am I being sad.... being lonely.... or what?

Hayz... this past few days.... napansin ko lang na parang very LONELY ako... walang makausap every night.... lagi na lang work ang nasa harap ko.... wala na nga akong lovelife, wala pa akong night life! grabe, sobrang nababato na tlga ako sa buhay ko... tapos feeling ko pa lahat ng tao galit sa akin sa PBBFG.... which is i consider na 1 of my shoulder to cry on na rin... everytime im sad, alone or down... naibabaling ko na lang yung mga nararamdaman ko from my private life to this game kasi pag nakaka-usap ko yung mga co-housemates ko... nakaka gaan tlga ng feelings ko. kahit papaano eh nagiging magaan na ang sarili ko. tapos eto na naman ang nomination night... kakabahan at metetense ka kasi di mo alam kung ikaw na ba ang susunod na mapapaalis sa bahay ni bbk o hindi. pero knowing na maraming galit sa akin dito ngayon, di na ako magugulat sa mangyayari.... cguro kailangan ko na ring matanggap na ayaw na nila akong mag stay pa sa bahay ni BBK. pero kung ganun man ang mangyari eh maluwag kong tatanggapin of all my heart... decision nila yun eh, so i have to RESPECT that, cguro nga PBBFG is not for me! maybe i should look for another things na makaka-help sa akin to ease the PAIN inside me....

Pati na rin yung isang "GUY" na kakakilala ko pa lang thru here, di na nagmemessage..... di ko nga alam kung ano ba tlga yung nasabi ko na di nya nagustuhan... ayaw naman nyang sabihin sa akin eh, i keep on messaging him thru here pero until now, no answers pa din coming from him. Kahit simpleng HI or HELLO lang, pero WALA tlga! but i give the benefits of the doubts na baka tlagang BUSY lang sya sa work nya, kasi nga he works at night tapos tulog sya during mornings... kaya di ko naman din sya masisi.... yung akin lang sana kung meron na syang pinagkaka-abalahang iba eh sana eh SABIHIN na lang nya para di ako nagmumukhang TANGA na kakaintay sa calls nya. Lagi na lang akong natutulog ng umaga na dahil sa kakaantayng calls nya tapos di naman pala sya tatawag! grabe tlga! di na tlga kayang powers ko ito! Well, im thankful enough na rin kasi kahit papaano eh andyan pa rin sa tabi ko yung mga TRUE FRIENDS ko like MICA, NEIL-G, and my super best bud na si JEFF! hay jeff thx tlga for being so nice to me pa din! And thx for being a good listener and friend to me as well, super swerte tlga ng gf mo sayo!:)

Charles blogs: Facing the Dragons

After 4 months of practice teaching, we finally came back to our Inang Pamantasan, the Philippine Normal University, that is.This semester, hopefully, will be my last one. Hey, I don’t have any plans to extend my bachelors degree, aside from the required 4 years.

This semester, I’m taking up my last 18 units (6 courses). This semester’s schedule (revised) is not that bad, although I need to get up at 4:30 am:

Mondays-Thursday

10:00-11:30 (Kas 13K) Kasaysayan ng mga Relihiyon
11:30-1:00 (Elect1) Pag-aaral ng Anthropolohiya
1:00-2:30 Break
2:30-4:00 (Ed11C) Introduction to Curriculum

Tuesdays-Fridays

7:00-8:30 (Litt2) Masterworks in World Literature
8:30-10:00 (AGP6) Buhay at Katha ni Dr. Jose Rizal
10:00-11:30 (Kas14K) Mga Isyu sa Kasaysayan ng Pilipinas

Last Thursday, we did came to class, but didnt met any professor. I think they’re still on-vacation, and they made me wake up at 4:30 am?!?!?!

But yesterday, we met the infamous Dr. Cecilia Mendiola, one of the 10 eternal dragons of PNU, but luckily, she made it clear that we will all pass, apparently, she didn’t want to be an impediment to our graduation.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot, we also met our Rizal professor, who accidently or incidentally, looked exactly like Dr. Jose Rizal, the name to be remembered: Dr. Dionisio Rivas.

And of course, the high-grader professor, Prof. Remedios Ong, will tackle different Issues in Philippine History with us. At least, I’m sure of a 90% or higher when I collect my class cards at the end of semester.

Other professors, Dr. Childa Magallanes, the only real historian in PNU undergraduate faculty, will teach us with the usual religion class (During the first year, she is my Constitution professor, but we didnt discussed anything on the Philippine Constitution, its all about religion).

Prof. Corazon Sigua (also our Strategies in Teaching professor, during the third year) will have us in Curiculum. The only professor who we didnt know is our Anthroplogy professor, but it is sure that its not Dr. Zenaida Reyes (a member of the 10 PNU eternal dragons).

Hindi na ako sanay na matulog ng maaga o gumising ng wala pang ilaw, I still need some adjustments with my body clock. So now, I think, I’m off to bed!

Charles confesses: Isa lang ang sigurado, isa sa mga VH ang lalabas

BBK, napakadaming nangyari nitong huling linggo matapos ang unang nominasyon. Pero sana nakasara na ung isyu na yon, kahit wala masyadong pag-uusap na nangyari...

Nominasyon na naman po, sana pagkatapos nito, ay wala nang isyu na lumabas. Sana maayos na tanggapin ng VH na mapapaalis ang desisyon ng kanyang mga kasama sa loob ng bahay. Isa po itong laro, at hindi personalan.

Nakokonsiyensiya po ako na hindi na ako masyadong nakakasama sa mga pag-uusap ng mga VH. Sa nominasyon na ito, maaaring ako ang maging delikado, maaari din namang hndi. Isa lang ang sigurado, isa sa mga VH ang lalabas (obvious ba?).

Sana walang magquit na VH, pero nauna na si jomar. Nalungkot ako sa kanyang desisyon, pero alam kong ang desisyon niya ay pinag-isipan niya. Matalinong bata si jomar, alam niya ang ginagawa niya. Sa mga natitirang VH, kaya natin ito!

"Cguro kung buhay pa ang ate ko, masaya ako ngayon" -Trish

Sigh... this is a very tiring week! nov. 1, we went to the cementary para mag tirik ng candle for my sister who died sa ozone tragedy 10 years ago... hay, nakakalungkot tlga! kasiwala na akong kakampi kinuha na ni lord... cguro kung buhay pa ang ate ko, masaya ako ngayon, and may defender na ako siguro! heheheheehhhehe! hay i missed all those times na we're together.... grabe, nakaka miss tlga! hayz... pero that's LIFE eh....

Trish confesses: Yoko naman na din po kasi ng bangayan eh

Hello bbk! sigh... been verybusy thispast few days... meron po kasi akong inaasikasong wedding ngayon eh, and 2 lang kami ng bestfriend ko yung nagaasikaso... sobrang toxic po kasi tlga... eto nga't nakikigamit lang ako ng laptop eh para naman kahit papaano eh makasilip dito sa board. miss ko na din kasi ang mga co-housemates ko eh... sila neil-g,mica, ken. sayang nga kasi di ako nakahabol sa pag give ng message kay jomar... well, alam naman ni jomar yun eh, so di na rin kailangan.... kahit papaano eh naging close din naman kmi nun kahit sobrang sa short time lang....

Bbk sana maging close ulit kami ng mga co-VHs ko kasi parang wala ng saya dito sa room eh, i must admit that i really missed yung mga confe every weekdays, sat or sundays.... i want to catch up po sana sa mga iba ko pang friends na housemates.... wala lang po.... buti nga po i got the chance to talk to gee awhile ago kahit na saglit lang, kasi nagmamadali daw sya, nag check lang daw sya ng mails nya. but still thankful pa din ako na nagka time sya kahit saglit lang. sana yung ibang co-vhs ko rin magka time to talk to me.... ayoko naman na din po kasi ng bangayan eh... di naman mahaba ang time namin to know each other dito eh..... dun nga pala sa mga nasaktan o naging affected sa mga nasabi ko lately... "SORRY"..... tao lang me di sadya, nasaktan lang and nagulat at the same time kasi sa mga reasons nila parang di ata ako yun... kasi kung sa time lang ang paguusapan eh madami akong time for PBBFG... ako pa! kahit may patay nga kami i'll make sure na makakapag online ako to check ang board kahit umaga na kami nakaka uwi eh.... kahit nakapag pa-alam na nga po ako sa inyo na mag leleave ako for ilang days i still make sure na nag uupdate po ako diba? pero wala na po sa akin yun.... ok na po yun, tapos na yun... nagmove-on na ako... and ang dami na rin kasing nangyari eh.... kaya wala na tlga sa akin yun.... gusto ko na nga pong makipag bati sa kanila eh, kaya lang natatakot po ako na baka i-ignore nila ako... kaya im just waiting for the right time na lang po!

I guess ito na lang po muna for now......

Anyway, 2nd nomination na pala! ayos andito na naman yung nakakakabang time of ourlife... ang hirap bomoto kasi halos lahat close na sau eh, and hirap mag let go ng 4 at 2 evicting points.... mas ok na ako sa 2 saving points! heheheehehehehe! sana puro na lang saving points ala ng evicting points! lolz!

Hayz... thank god nagka-ayos na din kami nila GEE, at PAO.... yeah, we had a short confe awhile ago.... sana it won't be the last thou... sana maging tuluy-tuloy na ang pagkakabati naming lahat!:)


Trish received 2 evicting points for posting her update in wrong thread.

"I'm a great pretender when it comes to loneliness here and about love" -Maristel

Haii, life! Good to hear from a fellow VH here... He quoted, maDrama na naman daw ako *lolz*... Well, let's just say, maDrama talaga yung quote that I forwarded...

It is one of the greatest ironies of human existence that the more you love someone,the more you make yourself vulnerable in the pain of losing them.. And the more people you love, the more you inrease your chances of getting hurt... Yes, love makes you strong... But at the same time it leaves you defenseless...

Very true, right... I just can't see myself hurting all over again for the same mistake I've done. Well, ironic, right? Well, that's how my life was designed after all... Actually, I should be learning from those past experiences but I guess Chris was right, when said - "yes" from my question, "Am I gullible?" Guess, all of us are gullible in some different ways... But love has always been my weakness and just can't get it out of hand... It's good to finally see yourself back on track and long have you been waited... Yes, IT IS - INDEED... Once again, a girl, is falling in love again... Not head over heels in love I suppose... But why can't I just get him out of my mind... I am missing everything about him... A lot of funny thoughts, happy moments were piercing me again.

I could say, I am very much happy now that I am feeling this again... But, why is this happening? Is there really a reason for me to be like this? I know that when you love someone, you can't find reasons why you love that certain person... Now, that's exactly what I feel... Hearing his voice and calling my name was such a lovely melody for me... Feels like, he's whispering upon my ears and yes, I can feel the spark on his voice...

WTH is happening to me? Whoa!!! I don't even hold a single assurance that "YES" - finally it's "US"... Petty things had happened for days and I know I've said too many things that unfortunately our ends didn't meet. Yes, I know for him it is painful... But having to feel this emptiness again... I say, NOTHING IS MORE PAINFUL THAN REALIZING HE MEANT EVERYTHING TO YOU BUT YOU MEANT NOTHING TO HIM... I'm just being paranoid, I presume... I just don't like this feeling...

It's all mixed CONFUSION, HAPPINESS, LOVE, DESIRE and EMPTINESS... I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me... I'm a great pretender when it comes to loneliness here and about love...

Like what I said on my recent blog... Finally, I've met this guy who made me smile like no one else can... SIGN, I guess... That's how I am... Always asking for a sign... But, I don't want to give up for the same reason... Yes, I maybe falling in love so easily, but it's letting go that sure takes time...

Some of my friends are right... Better be safe thatn sorry... I just want to feel LOVE once again... No, jiggity or what... At least I tried... But how can I try when I'm caught between I love you and goodbye?!? I just can't dig guys... I CAN - sure! But most of the times, I CAN'T...

Enough about this... This is EMO & I might burst into tears...

Current Mood: Makikay
Current Music: Nothing In This World by Paris Hilton

Maristel blogs: Save More Room...

Just as so all of us are aware of... We do always think that BOYS, GUYS or MEN are the ones responsible for breaking our hearts... Well said, right? But, for days now, a cretai guy has been bugging my mind. I just can't simply get him out of it. I've had all this things playing inside my mind. Thinking... That maybe, he might be thinking of me too... Kindda irritating but it's true! I know I may have done some wrongs, but never really wanted to do that... It's just that, I'm kindda worried that I might be driving him away from me... I just want him to know that I AM NOT... Whatever it is that I've told him... That, I've once texted him is TRUE... Hearing his voice from the other end of the line gave me more hope and it makes me fibble more... :)

Not that I'm afraid to see myself hurting - but this time is different... :) It just hurts so much to love him the way I do and then look at him and finally realize, maybe - how much he doesn't care... Though, I'm a bit confused and happy at the same time, still - I'm having this weird thoughts... I just don't want to see myself caught up in words and in the end tell him "you're not f*ckin' pretty inside man! I was so wrong loving you" ... DARN!!! WTF!?!

I thought, NO MORE DRAMA for me... Waaaahhh!!! I'm afraid losing him... Yah... Guess, he's the only one who could only make me smile like no one else can... Save more room...

Just a few words about me... I know deep inside me I was never that woman that made guys go crazy with and run after with. But I knew that I was the girl who may not been chased by guys but SUFFERED...

Love me or Hate me but I won't change for you... Bear this in mind, I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I'm not...

Back to reality, right? Well, I am and since then I was... Just be real, for I don't want to see myself loving a man that was never really him from the start...

Despite all these, I do miss you and somehow, you still made me smile...

Maristel confesses: Hope magkausap-usap pa din tayong lahat

Wala lang po BBK... Nomination na naman.. And again, pahirapan na naman po... Haaiii, kung pwede lang po sana na wag na lang mag vote... Or it is BBK who's going to choose whom ever it is, na di na deserving sa loob ng Virtual House...

To be honest po BBK... I really felt this sudden coldness na po sa Virtual House... The HYPER ACTIVE VHs that I used to get along with and fool around with are now a bit busy I guess... Guess, I just do miss the old noise these people were doing... Madalang na lang din po BBK ang mag online sa Boards or sa YM man lang... Nakakamiss lang, coz this isn't the environment that I get into during the first day...

Dun din sa mga di na masyado nakakapag online... Wala lang, if you have time, paramdam naman kayo... You know my digits, right? Hope magkausap-usap pa din tayong lahat, kahit di araw-araw - kahit paminsan lang...

DAY THIRTY-ONE
Mica confesses: Sana bumalik ang sigla ng ating bahay

Second Nomination na naman! The first nomination was sensational. Nandyan ang palitan ng mga maaanghang na salita. Nandyan ang sagutan. Nandyan na lahat hehe

Medyo stressed ang lahat dahil sa mga nangyari. Some even wanted to quit (and Jomar did). After the incidents, i rarely catch some housemates online. I noticed that some are not active na. Wala nang conference.

Sana bumalik ang sigla ng ating bahay.

Tayo'y mag otso-otso!

"Kung alin pa yung minor dun pa ako sumablay " -Mica

I am officially enrolled for second semester!

I had a blast with the enrolment. Thank God I'm with Lecelita and Dana!

I am a happy with my grades but one subjects pissed me off: LOGIC!

Kung alin pa yung minor dun pa ako sumablay

Anyway, I'm taking 24 units this sem. All Majors. Someone told me nga na parang nagpapakamatay na daw ako. May ECSSA pa. May Multimedia Club pa hehe

Please check out my livejournal for the Cogie-Myx history hehe Si Paolo ang witness doon!

Gee confesses: I promise to allot enough time

Ayun, it's been a while... For me... Yeah, and knowing na malapit na magstart ang 2nd sem... Don't worry, I promise to allot enough time for pbbfg BBK

Mica is right, nakakapanibago 'coz bihira na mag ol ang ibang ASVH... Let's consider the fact na dumaan ang Undas, enrollment week and others... For me naman, I have personal problems that I have to fix...

Well, 2nd nomination na pala... Hay, for the past few days na wala masyadong nangyari, I think it will be a hard decision... So, again, Goodluck na lang sa ating lahat...

Uhm, I kinda feel na may nagtatampo sa akin ( baka feeling ko lang un? haha!)... According naman yun sa nabasa ko. Well, I hope they'll understand my situation ngayon ( magbasa kasi kayo ng updates ko! wahahaha)... hayyyyy... Babawi ako sa kanila next time!

Ayun, again goodluck po sa ating lahat!

"PALIGAYAHIN NINYO AKO! " -Gee

So, my sembreak is almost over... Nov. 7 seven will be our enrollment... I missed UP! ... I never thought that this sembreak will be a dramatic one... Akala ko wala na akong moment w/ my highschool friends...

" Underneath the guise of smile... gradually I'm dying inside..."

I've learned a lot from a 12 hour experience... I've felt like an idiot, pero I've somehow realized na it is for me...

Now, I'm starting to find myself again... Just like what Socrates did when he was finding for the wisest man ( and it turned out to be na siya pala iyon). I'm stiil thankful I found such trusted persons... I love them a heepz!

" Friends ask me how I feel, and I lie convincingly... 'Coz I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering..."

Ayun... Hayyy,,, Iont wanna be sad nah... PALIGAYAHIN NINYO AKO! hehe...

Mica blogs: Cogie-Myx: History :P
music: Turn Back Time-Aqua

FYI: Try searching for COGIE DOMINGO sa google. The first link that will appear was made by me back in sophomore high school!

Tito Joey sent an email attachment last week. Here it is: (Minors are not allowed to click!)

I just smiled upon seeing this Penshoppe Ad last year in Manila. :P

I started liking this cutie actor when I saw the movie poster of "Deathrow". The same guy became the Image Model of Penshoppe.

Then he was paired onscreen with Sunshine Dizon at the GMA Teledrama "Ikaw lang ang Mamahalin" as Jepoy. He later played the lead part Carlito in the super duper political drama "Kung Mawawala ka" (oo na iniyakan ko yung ending!).

Then I started patronizing his movies. I even forced my dad to watch COOLDUDES back in 2002 or 2003? haha (last day na kasi nun haha).

Then I started ignoring my Spice Girls Yahoo Clubs and made one for him. It was called "Cogie Domingo Pogi Points" where me and the rest of the Cogie fanatics bonded. I asked my Tita to buy me a copy of Candy Mag (If i'm not mistaken, he's the first filipino actor to appear on the cover... I forgot! haha) and the same month, he also appeared in the cover of Chalk Mag.

Then I started making a simple website with the same name. After a month I decided to change my email account from mica_spice to cogiemyx_143 (na hindi ko na napalitan!). Then one day...












Taken last May 2004 :P

I was with Paolo when I went to Broadway to watch Stage 1: The Starstruck Playhouse (where he is one of the hosts, with Raymond and Chynna).

Nung first time, hindi ako makalapit sa kanya. As in nanginginig ako (nung panahon na yun ko lang naramdaman yun hehe) then nung next friday, I told myself na dapat talaga i-approach ko siya no matter what. Mga pulitiko nga nahaharap ko siya pa hehe :P

Ayun..

Lumapit ako sa kanya.

Me: Hi Cogie
Cogie: Hi
Me: I'm Mica and I'm a big fan *blush*. Can I take a picture with you?
Cogie: Sure - kodakan na-
Me: Thanks (pause) I made a fansite for you way back
Cogie: Really? Yung Galaxy ba?>
Me: (shocked) yes.. oo.. yun..
Cogie: Nakita ko na yun before. Thanks sa efforts and everything :) Sana lang i-update mo ulit
Me: Ok.. Naging busy kasi lately but I'll try.

Wah! Na-visit na pala niya yung site na yun! :)

So far that's the first and last encounter with Cogie. I hope mag-meet kami ulit :P

I feel bad because he's not getting good projects lately. He's a good actor. Sayang.
Mother Lily hello!!!!

2nd Nomination starts

MONTH 1 - DAY THIRTY
Best Lapida

ASVHs chose Paolo's work as the best in their Lapida Activity. Paolo earned 3 saving points.

"Paolo! astig! natawa talaga ako...the epitaph, hindi xa solemn, pero catchy...yung lapida... nax, killer smile! at may pic pa na nakapikit xa... heheAmerican Idol lang nmn xa! hahahaha...," Gee.

Only Gee, Maristel and Kashen out of 12 in-house ASVHs joined the voting.

ASVHs' final message to Jomar

Neil G: I believe u made d right decision. Joms, i know wer uncomfortable living inside the house already. i know how u felt. frendship was all u wer after and u felt u didnt get that.

Dnt worry bout it, hndi mo man nafeel na importante ka sa mga housemates, im pretty sure may concern din cla sa u. wag ng magdamdam. setting the game aside, u have gained frends already..... u jst dnt know that.

Bilib nga ako sa u kasi although ang laki ng age gap mo from majority of us here, nakasabay ka pa rin. Good luck, mr boy wonder.....


Rommel: Oh boy, why? what happened. I think you're full na. That's why you have decided to leave this house. Ddont worry na lang u have accomplished a goal, joms, you gained a friend here. Actually before, in season 1, i did not like you, i thought it would be you who'd be evicted first but this season, you proved me wrong, you are nice and comfortable to talk with. So, thanks for the friendship and always be true all times, thanks, maybe they don't understand you taht much but I do. Ggood luck..


Paolo: Kung galit ka man saakin wala akong magagawa. I tried my best na mag-kaayos kau ni Ate Mats pero ang iniisip mo na cya ang kinakampihan ko. Kung galit ako sau hindi na kita kakausapin. Naawa tlga ako sau nung sinabi saakin ni Gee na tumawag ka sknya at umiiyak.

Ayaw mo kasi maniwala saakin nun eh na may ngyaring masama kay Ate Mats kaya ndi cya nakapunta. Cguro nga dhil sbi mo 2 times n nya ginawa un cguro nga tlgang ayaw pa ni God na magkita kau. Believe me Jomar. Everything has a reason. Cguro maiintindihan mo un pag pinakita sau ni God kung ano ang reason. Good luck na lang sau sa studies. I know you can always do it.


Charles: Jomar. I just wish you good luck. Alam ko na lahat ng desisyon na ginawa mo ay tama.


Maristel: FINAL WORDS... Thanks sa lahat. For all the INSPIRING WORS... THE HARSH WORDS... It's all fine with me. I know how you feel. But just a piece of advise...

You should have empathized how and what I felt... Never really thought that a YOUNG 13 year old kid has all the capabilities to be IMPULSIVE and JUDGMENTAL and who happened to be CONSIDERED as A FRIEND is now getting off the limits... I know you've said "gusto mo maayos" and that's what I wanted to emphasize yesterday. But you flooded me with MEAN MESSAGES, ok lang... 32 font size... Ok lang. That's how I am, kahit nasasaktan na, nakikipag usap pa din...

Wish you well kid. Goodluck na lang


Kashen: Jomar.. para na din kitang lilbro..but mas mtanda ang lilbro ko in real life sayo.. well just be a good boy as olweys..and the very important is STUDY HARD! and i know naman na ur doing it.. so god bless!


Gee: Oh well, first of all I want you to know na tinakot mo ako! hahaha... anyway, I hope na happy ka sa naging decision mo and hindi mo pagsisisihan ito. I'm really happy na you've said that your sorry na kay Ate Mats... I wish magkaayos na kayo...

Un lang bro! Study hard! Make it to the top! Byesh!!!

Gee blogs: BLUE and RED

The darkness comes,
Light fades away.
And I must end,
Another day.
No light to share,
The hope away.
It stays and grows,
Till another day.
Moonlight shines,
Asking love to stay.
But it is gone,
With the coming day.
Silently waiting,
My life away.
Hoping I'll find it,
Someday.

This Day! I never thought it would be dramatic... Yes, DRAMATIC!

Jobel invited me to go to their house. Actually, pakana ni JM. 4 lang daw kami; Jobel, JM, Philipp and Me. I was like? Whatta??? I kinda feel na it will be an intimate talk. It was last night when I started to wonder. Bakit 4 lang kami? Bakit sa room pa ni Jobel? Bakit parang ako lang ang hindi nakakaalam kung bakit kami mag-uusap?

May nagawa ba akong mali? May nagawa ba ang isa sa amin against someone? How deep is it?

Lots of inquisitions... But then, it turned out to be na, PARA SA AKIN ANG TALK NA IYON. May nagawa siya sa akin, nang hindi ko alam...

I don't wanna put details, it's not important for me...

These are my reflections:

** I felt stupid! Ignorant... IDIOT! You know that, lahat na sila alam, ako na lang pala ang hindi... Nakakahiya! Nakakainis!
** I felt unaccepted. They are my friends. They know me. I know they're openminded, just like me... Pero, I just have this feeling na their saying things againts me... Well, I can't blame them... Ako yun! Sila yun!
**I felt unrespected. Was it my fault? I've encountered that event not once. What does it mean?
** I felt like a b**tch. Oh well, why me?
** I felt like a loser! Yes loser! Darn! I hate expecting eh... Pero HE was convincing...
** I was so disappointed! Goodluck to him!


On the other hand.... after realizing the other side...

** I am touched! Yes we are friends for 7 years... And I can't beleive that a friend confessed me something... It is clearly seen that he is afraid that our friendship shall be ruined by a STUPID act...
** I feel loved! I was not unrespected... In fact, I think he did it as a sign of his reverence for me, as his friend, as a woman, and as a HUMAN.
** I was wrong for accusing myself such words above. I should clear their intentions firsts...
** I felt accepted. Yes, I still do! They are one of teh bestest people in the word. ** I am not a loser! I'm a winner... and also. They've won my heart. Again! But this time, it's for a lifetime!

"Kala ko magtutuloy tuloy na xa" -Kashen

+_^ now lng ako nka encounter ng ganito, kninang umaga sorang taas ng lagnat kho..i tot magtutuloy tuloy na xa..i cant slip pag may lagnat ako..fils like umiikot ung mundo ko habng nkahiga akho..and the things were turning upside down..kung mkatulog man akho maybe 30mins or less lng then ganon na namn..so i go to my mom khit d ko pa kayang tumayo..dapat dadalin na kho sa hospital but ayoko sabi ko sa mom kho dahil kaya ko pa naman..pinainom agad ako ng mom ko ng antibiotic bka mamya kc trangkaso na xa or wat..then itong hapon lng im suprised nawala agad xa maybe over fatigue lng ako dahil sa pinaggagawa ko sa tagaytay then lgi pa kong nauulanan don..hmf ..=(

+_^ after that naghahanp ako ng damit na paplantsahin para pagpunta ko sa skul..>.<..then nung icoconect ko na ung plantsa sa outlet bigla na lng sumabog ung wire..then nkita umapoy pa nga ung wire but nwala din xa agad..ginwa ko agad is hinila ko agad sa pinamain ung wire pra maputoyl ung flow ng electricity..i got scared coz kala ko magtutuloy tuloy na xa..=(..til now i dnt know kung bkit nagyari yon coz sabi ng mom kho nung umaga lng nagamit nya pa ung extension na yon.. +_+ until now im rily shocked sa nangyari coz ntakot tlaga akho..knina lng ako nka exp ng ganon..=(...lucky pa din ako coz buhay pa kho...=( ..godbless to all..

"Honestly, im nt completely over BABE yet" -Neil G

MISSING SOMEONE..... another week is almost over...

The days went too fast. i dnt know if it's becoz inlove lng ako masyado or wat. hehehehe. nway, ANGEL is flying back to cebu tomorrow afternun but saturday pa kami magkikita. BABE is also coming back on saturday.

At kasabay ng pagbabalik ng dalawa ay ung pag-aagawan ng attention nila frm me.

Im really so excited to be with ANGEL again after the long wait. "MY LOVE" pala tawagan namin (corny noh?). hehehe. ganyan tlaga pag inlove. miss na miss ko na tlaga cya.

C BABE naman, on the other hand, sends me messages (at least a msg a day)... messages na alam mong namimiss ka... na kahit hndi man nya sabihin ay nararamdaman ko. hndi ko inexpect mas lalong nagtitxt pa cya after i confessed my relationship with ANGEL.

Honestly, im nt completely over BABE yet.... but mas mahal ko naman c ANGEL kaysa kay BABE.

And am very happy right now coz i have ANGEL, someone i love and someone hu loves me as well.......

"I'M HAPPY BEING SINGLE, but I have to admit, IT'S SOMEHOW ... INCOMPLETE..." -Maristel

Wot's happening? lolz... Just a bit confused right now... I really don't know what I'm gonna do about this certain stuff...

I'm just a bit fed up on how things are happening... Yeah! I am inspired... Who doesn't want this kind of feeling right now... I may not have the best time right now, but who says everybody wants to have the "BEST"? Right? Everything has been turning out the way I don't want it to happen. There has been a lot of situations that I don't like here.

I'm a very shallow person, when it comes to LOVE. MABABAW... SABAW as my friends would tell me... Well, it's just me. I'm simply mababaw... Simple "i love you's" "sorry's" I don't care... Who does? I bet... But, it has been a whirlwind for me. I dunno, or maybe I just caught him on a bad day and so as he... We could all be twisted sometimes... Some of us may have this clash with the ones we love... But, it's so soon and I didn't see it coming...

Yeah, all of us may be sappy in a lot different ways. We could all be sensitive in a lot of ways. Just admitted that I'm a a bit shallow but who said that this guy isn't? Well, he's more shallow... I just don't know... I may not have all the rights to get mad at him, but he has this tendencies (sometimes) of being so sarcastic in a way hard to explain...

Ho,hum,dee,dum, dee, dum... Yada - yada! Well, he'll be back in L.A. later. I do admit, I may have commited mistakes myself, but that doesn't mean I really wanted to do things the opposite way he wants me to be... Well, talk of efforts... I just did! I had this sleepless nights... I saw him in my dreams and much to my excitement I woke up and see myself curled up alone on my bed... Well, a DREAM... So, I went downstairs and logged in... And there he is, online... Saying he was on this LUAU PARTY there at some Strip at Waikiki... Wish I could be two places at one time and rather spend my days with him and watch myself as I'm swept away by him... His hands or maybe arms... Mushy right?

Well that's me, I just see love and that's how I love... I'M NOT A GOOD LOVER... Coz I do mess up... I start fights (sometimes)... I get jealous easily (at times)... I may be a bit demanding (in a way that I'm just making lambing, not the "I want this... I want it now..." demanding type)... And I often get mad... But there are three things I do love about myself... I DON'T PLAY... I GIVE MY ALL... and I LOVE DEEPLY...

That's how I am... I don't care and I don't count and measure the months that passed and yet no one to hug nor kiss, no one to plan the future with... I do always say that I'M HAPPY BEING SINGLE, but I have to admit, IT'S SOMEHOW
... INCOMPLETE...

Guess, once he's back from where he really stays, everything will be alright... Or I'd rather think of him as "THINKER-DOER" he might be thinking stuffs about me coz it's him who's doing it... Not the literal way, so to speak... He just rush things and I just dont want somebody rushing stuffs with me... I just want him TO SAVE ROOM for everything... Everything and anything under the sun... I don't want things hasty... He kindda surprised me in everything he's doing...

CURRENT MUSIC: SAVE ROOM by: John Legend
CURRENT MOOD: Disappointed


SAVE ROOM
John Legend

Say that you stay a little
Don't say bye, bye tonight
Say you'll be mine
Just a little of bit of love is worth a moment of your time

Knocking on your door just a little
So cold outside tonight
Let's get the fire burning
Oh I know, I keep it burning right

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me - ohh

This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be afraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is just on the other side

Let down your guard just a little
I keep you safe in these arms of mine
Hold on to me - pretty baby
You will see I can be all you need

If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me - ohh

[pa-ra-pa-pa] - [pa-ra-pa-pa] - [pa-ra-pa-pa] - [ra-ra-ra]

Ohhh come on

Make time to live a little
Don't let this moment slip by tonight
You never know what you are missing till you try
I keep you satisfied
If you stay, won't you stay - stay

Save room for my love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save room for my love save a little
Save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me - ohh

Save room for love
Save room for a moment to be with me
Save a little, save a little for me
Won't you save a little?
Save a little for me

DAY TWENTY-NINE
Maristel confesses: I can already feel chills or coldness from the others

Belated Happy Halloween everyone... To those na nakaalala sa akin kanina, thanks... Sa mga hindi, thanks din... Siguro busy lang kayo... Yung iba, don't say na I have new friends... Lahat kayo, mahal ko. And kung meron man ako ayaw kausapin ngayon, you know the reason why... Masyado pa din akong nasasaktan sa mga sinabi niya...

Happy All Soul's Day...

Basta, BBK... Parang, affected ako lately sa nangyayari... Di ko po alam... BAKA NANINIBAGO LANG PO AKO... Para po kasing may mga nagbago... Alam ko naman po, na there might be reasons behind, BUSY or kung anuman po... Pero okay lang po...

Just miss my kaTROPA here... You know who you are... To new found friends, MASAYA AKO, coz I get to know you... Looking forward po ako BBK, for a BETTER camaraderie ngayon... NO MORE FIGHTS or war as some may say...

And dun sa isang VH, di naman ibig sabihin, di mo na kailangan pagkatiwalaan yung mga nainvolve na names dun sa CONFE na i posted... Or ako man or the other person. POSTING IT, some you may find it, AGAINST and favorable for me... HINDI... I did post it, para lang malaman na natin lahat. And I know after a week from that conversation, wala naman na yung napag-usapan dun...

I love you all... If you still want to trust me or anybody inside this Virtual House... Kaya lang, ako... Siguro, mag iingat na din... Coz, I can already feel chills or coldness from the others... Nakakasad... Kung anuman yun, meron man di napagkasunduan... Together with the All Soul's Day, isama na natin yung mga bad memoirs natin dito sa Virtual House, kasi, it's not gonna do us good...

Sa mga may pasok na... Goodluck! I miss you all... As in lahat kayo, pati ikaw BBK...

"It really is difficult losing someone you love" -Maristel

Nothing special... HALLOWEEN... Not memorable for me... Just at home... Well, we kindda planned an OUTING but it didn't push through... Guess due to financial constrains... Hahaha! And, frankly, my family weren't into going to cemeteries... What my grandma and dad used to tell me, "we can always pray for their souls..." Kaya ayun... I did pray for their souls na lang... We do visit the cemetery every once in a while.

If there were some relatives close to my heart that I did pray for, it's: my Lola Daleng, we may not have the closest bonding ever as mag-lolas, pero love ko siya. Meron sya favorite sa mga cousin ko na babae. Di ako yun... Pero the day she passed away... I was the only apo na nandun and yung gusto niya makita. I remember, nagsabi yung favorite niya na apo na sya ang magbabantay - but it was me who showed up sa Hospital. Dun ako sa pinaka lobby ng Hospital natutulog... Everytime nagbubukas yung elevator, nagigising ako... I was alone that night. I even brought her a bottle of Coke kahit na bawal... 5 hours before she died - I remember, nag poopoo pa siya. Tapos ayaw niya na nurses ang magWash sa kanya. Ayaw niya na lalabas yung paa niya, nahihiya daw siya kasi di daw siya nakapagpa manicure, pedicure... Beauty conscious kasi ang lola ko... I remember, an hour before she passed away... Kumakain kami ng Tito and Tita ko Country Chicken sa Banawe. Namatay yung lights sa Restaurant. Tapos ako, sabi ko balik na ko sa ICU. Discuss muna nila if they want na mag undergo pa intubulation si Lola. Takbo ako sa Hospital, sa kabilang building pa naman... Nashock na lang ako, kasi yung isang nurse na nagbabantay sa Lola ko, nakilala ako... She told me na, wala na daw si Lola...

Para na lang, nanlamig yung buong katawan ko, and I can't barely walk... Felt like I was... my feet were stucked from the floor I was standing on... It really is difficult losing someone you love. Someone, you grew up with... Kahit na 2nd best lang ako for her... But the thought of her leaving... Really hurts... Kahit di man kami super close, love na love ko siya. I remember 4 years ago... I was terribly sick... I was crying that night. I asked for a sign... That night, I felt that NO ONE LOVES ME... So, while inside the room... And I can't sleep, sabi ko na lang... "Ang hirap pala, if you can't feel love in return sa mga taong mahal mo... Meron pa kayang nagmamahal sa kin?"
I was appalled when I saw this ray of light from the Veranda door... I saw my lola... And suddenly I felt a tear fell from my face... I miss her... I know she's now in heaven... She'll be my forever angel...

Also my Lolo Nat... Who rarely remember the date of his grandchildren's birthday... Natatouch ako kasi, sa lahat namin na apo niya, pasapit pa lang ang May, kumakatok na siya sa pinto namin... Knocking and calling my name... Aabot siya ng pera sa akin... That became a habit for him. Annually... A year before siya mamatay... I was outside their parking... Just standing there. He called me, and handed me a 500 bucks... Alam ko wala trabaho si Lolo... Security guard lang siya dati. Hanggang sa Daddy ko na ang kumupkop sa kanya and sya na ang nagbibigay ng allowance kay Lolo... Hindi ko talaga tinatanggap... Sabi ko lang, "Dapat nga po ako ang nagbibigay sa inyo..." But he insisted... Magagalit daw siya sa akin kapag di ko tinanggap... Hanggang sa nagkagalit kami ng Daddy ko... Sabi nga namin Lolo Nat's a man of few words... Every night punta sya ng punta sa bahay namin... Gusto niya maiayos namin ng Dad ko whatever it is na pinagkagalitan nila ng kapatid ko... Di kami nakinig. Di namin alam, it was his last na pala... Forever, he's in my heart...

Si Lolo Isiong ko... LAtely lang kami nag bond. Nung tumira ako for ilang months sa bahay ng Mommy ko. Siya kasama ko sa bahay, together with my Mom and my brother & his wife. Sobrang, dun ko lang nafeel na mahal niya ako, kasi, pagkagising ko, all's prepared na... Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner. Minsan na disconnect ang PLDT namin. Kahit na may catharact siya, pumupunta siya ng Recto para lang magbayad sa main office. NAhihiya daw kasi siya sa akin. Matagal na iniwan ng Dad ko ang Mom ko, pero di niya inaway or anuman. Tumahimik lang siya kahit may galit din sa kanya ang Daddy ko. Pero still, mahal niya kami. Kung sino mahal ni Mommy yun ang mahal niya. Di ako nakakakuha ng sweldo a month before he passed away... Pero, lahat ng bills siya ang nagbabayad. Up to his last breath, isa lang sinasabi niya... Wag daw kami pababayaan, kami ng Mommy ko... Before siya mamatay, tinuturo niya sa Tito Rommel ko yung pants niya na nakasabit sa pinto ng Room niya. Yung wallet daw niya. Yun pala, may mga nakatabi siya na pera, ibigay daw kay Mommy... Sobrang ang lungkot...

Silang 3... From the hospital, hanggang sa funeral, binantayan ko... Pati ang ang pab embalm I was there. Ako nag ayos sa lola ko... Yung request niya na manicure pedicure, na 24K lahat yung ako ang nag ayos. I want to see her still beautiful even sa kanyang coffin...

I love them all... A memory... A special memory... As long as their memory linger on my mind... Alam ko, nandyan pa din sila, nagbabantay sa akin, sa amin... Nasa heaven na sila... And alam ko... In God's perfect time... In another place and time... We'll see each other again...

Mahirap mamatayan... Pero, buhay natin hiram lang sa Diyos... At sa huli, alam ko dun pa din tayo sa kanya babalik, sa piling Niya... Na siyang may lalang ng lahat... Mawala man tayo, pero, it's MORE and MUCH BETTER LIFE that AWAITS US, with our God Heavenly Father...

May they Rest in Peace...

"Balik Dagupan na ako!" -Mica

Bye Starbucks. Bye Greenhills. Bye Ministop. Bye MRT. Bye Area 51. Bye Netopia. Bye Long telebabad sessions.

Hello Second Semester!

I'm planning to make a separate blog for me and my brother Carlo (where some of my sweetest and memorable stuff with him willbe posted) and another one formy secret lovelife hahaha

I'm not sure if I got high grades last semester. I hope wala na akong "almost failing" grades. No Incomplete please .

Some of my relatives and friends in Manila are complaining about my weight. Skinny na daw ako.

NEED TO GAIN WEIGHT ASAP!

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Mica confesses: Kinarir ko po siya

Trying to catch you online sana pero mukhang wrong timing ako palagi hehe

Sent the Lapida Task with MS WORD. Tinignan ko po yung sent items ko when i was in Manila. Kapag preview, yung text lang po talaga ang lalabas pero kapag i-download the whole document naka-post po dun yung lapida. Please Kuya I'm telling the truth po talaga.. kinarir ko po siya bago ako lumuwas ng Manila.. I hope you consider this one.

Charles blogs: Halloween: Filipino Style

This occasion is celebrated around the world, but celebrating Halloween in the Philippines is definitely the most unique one. Why? Hehehe, first of all, celebrating Halloween, the filipino style, does not mean kids in costume with candy bags and banging the doors.

Halloween for the Filipinos, is a sacred occasion which may be considered as a reunion of the family. They go to memorial parks, clean up their departed loved ones’ tombs, and light up some candles and offer flowers. Anyway, most of them go on Nov 1, the All Saints Day, knowing that Nov 2 is the “official” All Souls Day. So, that may be considered as Filipino stupidity. But I would’nt say too much about it, seeing that I do it myself, as they say, just go with the flow.

Maristel blogs: Journey of Our Life

Life's a stage... Sheesh... lolx... Just a bunch of my vivid moments... Life at it's best"est" and worst, everrrr But still, writings won't differ to who and what I really am... It isn't deceiving but just PLAIN and AU NATURELLE, mOi... > xoxo < mwaaaHugggZz mwahness... hugs"ness" cuteness coolness... CHILLness MEEH...
Journey of Our Life
Waaaah!!! Is there really as such? *lolz* Just kindda askin the obvious... Of course there is. October 31's the Halloween, right? November 01's All Saints Day and November 02's All Souls Day...

Well, just my own vision of the road were travelling ang through right now... As a Psychology Student years ago... I've loved and still love reading books about life and after it... It reaches deep into my mind, heart and soul... It reverberates & echoes what I know TO BE TRUE FOR MYSELF. Like LIFE & DEATH... Some denies and can't accept the way their life is and how death tore us apart, for there may be some roads our loved ones may have not taked or travelled in to...

But wherever our dear departed may be... I know and I believe that they're happy now... Seeing us from above were they're with Our Creator...

Another reason maybe which echoes loudly within me. Based on my own points of view, it's "US" who choose our own path and the one we choose may or may not affect our destiny. On one road, we can follow the masses making it is an easier way or path while the road we may be is the lonely one. One hardship maybe because people don't understand why we should want to travel that certain road. Most people are not willing to travel this road because of FEAR, the FEAR OF REJECTION, THE FEAR of ISOLATION and the FEAR of being ALONE. This fear drives us to conformity, to following the multitude, but we just ask... IS THIS THE ROAD WE SHOULD TAKE?

Just a question though... Which is better, being on a road with the multitudes while you find yourself floundering and dying in an unnatural world, a world you don't understand and you fight every step of the way trying to fit in where you don't fit in? Or, is it better to choose the road that we less travelled and recognizing that this road is familiar because it's the road THAT LEADS HOME. The PROMISE LAND... With God, the Creator... The Savior... Where we'll discover lies hope, the awakening of the consciousness...

When we know there's a world that lies beyond this one, a world that is our home, then we must choose that path. At least if that's our destiny and if we are willing to walk it alone if necessary. Then we'll determine to choose the road less travelled, the one that makes us home. We click forward and onward. We penetrate that realm more deeply, seeking and searching WHAT LIES AHEAD... Providence opend doors that weren't closed but which are also unseen before now. Sounds and sights become visible. Things change. Reality changes before us. It's a different world than the natural world in which our body lives.

The physical world is all around us. It's what we see and once we have tasted. The heavenly realms and ascend to that level we don't view the natural world around us as other do. It becomes very foreign to us all. Just as foreign to us as our world is to them. But, WE MUST, however, PARTICIPATE in both worlds. We must keep one foot in the world where most of us are in because that's where our natural body lives and works. But we often are considered not normal because of our lack of desire to be a part of the natural world since this world no longer has anything to offer us. Frequently, we're attacked for not being ambitious, of for being lazy and to try to explain a different way of life to others only arouses anger from them because they simply can't see the world which we have occupied or we all rise from the lower level or from our birth...

The search for truth, or like a few calls it Shangri-La, is a far more ambituous and rewarding endeavor than any ambition or goal in this world. Heaven do really exist. I know and I do believe that higher reality exists. We seek a key to open the door into this world but then we find that we don't need a key. The door was always before us JUST WAITING FOR US TO WALK or ENTER in. We just didn't see the door before now.

For some of us who have found the door we wonder how we could have missed it. Why didn't we find it before now? But perhaps because, we are not ready; we weren't prepared enough to live in the higher world for now...

A lot of us may have asked over and over... How we're going to prepare for it? We seek, search the truth, we pray and we do listen to all the people around us. We search for inklings... But ins spite of all the things we've learned I do believe it still doesn't tell us how to find our way to the next life. Coz no one and nobody can really tell. Those things will just cause us to hunger for that world we know exists but can't yet to see... IT MAY BE A VERY LONELY PLACE TO BE, because we haven't been there yet...

Life is difficult, hard... Sometimes it can be rough, harsh and full of pain... But with all those, we do learn a lot of things and later find out that LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...

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Lolz! Until now, kinikilabutan parin ako…

If ever I’ll die that age ( 100 years old ), I want that pic to be posted, yung pic na fresh pa ako. Haha… Ang sagwa naman kasi, ang girly ng epitaph tapos mukhang lupa yung nasa pic. Well, well, well…

How would I explain that? Haha, obviously, that is not a very SOLEMN epitaph. Pero, every single line is really worth reading for those na hindi ako kilala. I think it can somehow catch attentions. Haha! I want them to know na yung naging life ko ( or yung magiging life ko… ang gulo! Hehe) is not that simple. Dahil kahit kailan, hindi ako pumapayag sa isang bagay na blank. It’s not that I’m making simple things ( especially problems! Waah!) complicated. But I want everything to be colorful and meaningful. I’m not just closing a chapter na hindi nagkakaroon ng kabuluhan.

Yes, you may see me as a clumsy, kikay, and maarte chiq, pero once na nagsalita ako… Hehe… Kayo na ang mag judge! I’m pertaining the TARAY word sa pakikipaglaban ko kung ano sa tingin ko ang tama. Hindi naman ako basta-basta nagtataray ng walang saysay. And you know what? Whenever I’m doing that, I do feel beautiful. Why? Because I believe I’ve done worthy stuffs. Win or lose, it’s fine with me. I’m accepting mistakes naman.

Thus, I want that epitaph to be written that way. Why? Kasi, that’s me! Akong- ako! Somehow, eventhough wala na ako, I want to make my lovedones smile bye simply reminding them kung sino ako. ANG BABAENG MAS MAGANDA KAPAG NAGTATARAY! Hahaha… There…


Things you want to do or accomplish before you finally rest in peace..

Ofcourse, lahat naman tayo may kanya-kanyang DREAMS. As much as possible, I want to pursue all of them:

* To become the Future SEXIEST Information Professional (haha!)
* To build our family’s dream house
* To be rich… Super rich!!! As in… Because marami akong gustong tulungan.
* To have my own family ( siyempre!). A very nice, understanding and romantic husband and cute kids with good manners.

… and actually, nakakahiya man pero kasama sa mga pangarap ko ang magkaroon ng pangalan from a reality show. Haha! I hope magkaroon ako ng time for that.


My Last Will Of Testament…

Lahat ng mga kayamanan ko ( o magiging kayamanan..) ay paghahatihatian ng aking mga anak.

Ang aking mga damit ay ibibigay ko sa aking pinsang nagngangalang Joy De Leon. Maaari din niyang bigyan ang aming naging katulong na si Ate Len para hindi na nila kailangang manghiram ng damit nang walang paalam.

Ibibigay ko ang koleksyon ko ng mga hikaw sa aking bestfriend noong higschool.

Ang mga pabango ko, laman ng aking vanity kit at mga accessories ay paghahatihatian ng 102901.

Ang aking mga scrapbook, journals, diary, autograph, photoalbums at kung ano-ano pang mga memorabilias ay naig kong ilagay sa aking mausoleum.

Ibibigay ko ang password ng aking friendster, blogs, myspace, hi5, fotki, photobucket at multiply kay Rachel na lagi kong nakakasama tuwing may aksidenteng nagaganap. Ang password ko ay ******. Scratch mo na lang!

Si Ate Issa ( ang aming kasambahay) na ang bahala kay Roxie, my pet. Yung shampoo niya ah!

Ibibigay ko ang aking nagiisang blingbling sa kapatid ko, oo ikaw lang un Hanz! Pwedeng-pwede na niyang ibenta yan para makabili ng sarili niyang blingbling pero kung nais niyang itago, wala namang kaso. Nawa’y magsilbi iyong alaala ng aming hilig sa hiphop music.

Speaking of music, aking ibinibigay naman ang collection ko ng CDs sa aking kaibigang si Joan Jingco. Pwede nyang bigyan ang bestfriend ko noong highschool na si Lynel.

Ang collection ko naman ng Bacstreetboys at Moffatts ay paunahan na lang ang mga kaibigan kong fan din nila. Bahala kayong mag-gera dyan!

Nais kong ang kaibigan kong si April Marcelino ang magmake-up sa akin. Ang damit na aking isusuot ay iyong 2nd dress ko noong debut party ko. Yung hikaw ay iyong hikaw na ginamit ko noong graduation noong highschool. At sa mga accessories, bahala na ang mommy ko. Siya naman ang final judge sa lahat ng mga isinusuot ko. Sadness!

Nais kong glittery red ang kulay ng aking coffin. Paligiran sana ito ng Red Roses. Ilagay sana ang sexiest picture ko bilang display. Ilagay niyo din ang mga memorabilias ko sa tabi ng coffin ko. Utang na loob, wag ninyo akong iki-cremate kung hindi ay hindi ko kayo patatahimikin. Mumultuhin ko kayo gabi-gabi at iki-cremate ko kayo ng buhay!


Gusto ko, “Remember me this way” ang kanta kapag ihahatid na ako sa huling hantungan.

During my interment, nais kong marinig ang tinig nila JM Domingo, ang lagi kong ka-duet noong highschool. Kantahin mo ang A Whole New World. Mag-duet kang mag-isa! Nais ko ding marinig ang tinig ni Paolo Miguel Mata sa kanyang bersyon ng WHEN I FALL IN LOVE. Nais ko ding marinig ang tinig ng kaibigan kong Lucky Buenaventura, “ Panunumpa” yung kanta. Nais ko ding marinig ang golden voice ng daddy ko. Kahit anong kanta ay ayos lang sa akin, basta galling sa kanya. And last, yung tipong ibinababa na ako, gusto kong marinig ang tinig ni Benjamin Espina sa kantang Pasilyo. Sana ay marinig ko pa ang lahat ng mga iyon.

Lahat ng aking mga natirang gamit, mga litrato, at kung ano-ano pa, ilagay ninyo sa king mausoleum. Sana, ang mga kandilang ilalagay ninyo ay color red.

Ayan, sobrang hassle ban g mga kahilingan ko? Pasensya. Ang malas niyo kasi nawala na ako! Pero kung mahal niyo talaga ako,…. Bahala na kayo!

Huwag kayong mag-alala, balang araw ay magkikita-kita ulit tayo...At pwede niyo na akong bugbogin.

MAHAL NA MAHAL KO KAYONG LAHAT!

: )

Sa ginawa ko pong lapida, well, medyo ginawa ko pong kenkoy kasi ako po ay isang masayahing tao. I hate being a sad person. Kaya po medyo may konting kulay yung lapida ko! Tapos kaya po may mga pumpkins, kasi tinama ko po sa halloween! hehehehe!

how to plan death:
pag namatay po ako like ko ang crimation... tapos like ko po yung mga guys na naka wear ng t-shirts and dress naman po sa mga babae... yung color po are "ALL SHADES" ng pink.... mapa dark pink man po or light pink.... basta lahat po ng color ng pink will do. Ganun din po ang shades ng flowers na nakapalibot sa casket ko before po ang crimation ko..... tapos after po ng crimation ko... like ko po yung ashes ko eh nakalagay sa isang maliit na pendant and nakalagay sa chin at gawing necklace ng mga family members ko and even yung special someone ko meron din po. para po whereever po sila mag punta eh lagi nila me kasama and maaalala.....

Ang Huling Testamento
Ni
TRISH ARREZA

Ako, si Trish Arreza, nakatira sa Mindanao Avenue, Quezon City, idinidiklara ko na ang lahat-lahat ng aking pag-aari mula sa aking mga lupain at bahay, hanggang sa aking pera na nagkakahalaga ng 10 milyon eh buong puso kong inihahandog sa lahat ng bata sa BANTAY BATA 163, na wari'y magkaroon sila ng isang bahay na matutuluyan at sapat na pagkain sa araw-araw.Nawa'y maka-kain sila 3 beses sa isang araw. Ito ay inihahandog ko kay Sister Stella EL na siyang tagapamahala ng mga bata at ng nasabing organisasyon.

Lagda: Trish Arreza

Gee blogs: Rizal Mabuhay!

Bwahaha! Mabuhay! At nabuhay nga kami! Hehe...

I miss them a heck! And that night was a heck of fun...

So, I'll just let these pics tell what happened ayt? hehehe...

So, I'll just let these pics tell what happened ayt? hehehe...

http://public.fotki.com/devious-smile/year_2006/trip-ng-rizal-hehe/

Ayun... actually, may Rated PG pics kami... haha! It was a trick, actually... just notify me kung may interested! hahaha... I love them! hehe... Byesh!

Gee confesses: There are tendencies na sinasaktan mo lang yung sarili mo, kahit wala naman talagang dapat masaktan

Good Day BBk! So, I guess there are lots of things inside the vhouse that are deserving enough to be given my reaction... haha!

First, I'm happy for our team for winning the 2nd battle! Bad thing, hindi na napakinabangan ni Jomar!

Speaking of Jomar, ayun, he quitted the game. Nakausap ko xa sa phone and he was crying. Aw, It is my weakness pa naman; to hear or see a person cries. Pero,I never thought na he'll quit nga talaga... I thought nasabi lang niya un kasi galit siya. Pero ayun! Well, It was his decision eh...

Naiintindihan ko yung feeling ng nainjan, or naiwan... Pero, naiintindihan ko rin yung feeling nang nagpapaliwanag pero hindi iniintindi... I don't weigh each side... Basta, sana magkaayos sila BBK...

You know what, I think something must be fixed in this house BBK. Like, well,,, I dunno eh... I can't really figure out what's the problem, or if it is a problem. A lot of things are getting personal nah... I think kasi, there are certain things na dapat sa GAME lang and ibang usapan na yung personalan... Or dapat talaga walang personalan...

There are heepz of stuffs here that I've never encountered in our season. At first, akala ko maganda iyon. Like, everyday may new issue. Unlike sa season namin, na sa activities and nomination lang... Pero I think malapit na akong maniwala kay isang VH from our season. All star season is a crowd daw. Akala ko masaya kapag hindi tahimik ang bahay. But eventually, sa season na to, it's like nagiging maingay siya, in a negative way. I don't know if it is really part of this game or what... Pero, may mga nasasaktan na! At maraming factors kung bakit tayo nasasaktan. Pwedeng kasama sa game, or labas namn talaga sa game. And there are tendencies na sinasaktan mo lang yung sarili mo, kahit wala naman talagang dapat masaktan. I don't know!

For this BBK, I am requesting an activity that can patch this/these thing/s up... Just to figure out what's wrong and correct it. Or if kung wala nmn, then wala... hehe

BTW, I've read Charles latest confession. AND it made me frown. I said before na kung ano ako sa kanya noong season namin, ganoon pa rin ako sa kanya right? And may statement siya na "Kung SILA naman ang hindi nagtitiwala..." Hayyy,,, ayan... I don't know if its personal... hehe... Basta, siya ng pinaka pinagkakatiwalaan ko dito... Sana he won't base all that doon sa CONVERSATION nila ate mats and trish. Para namang hindi niya ako kilala... Silang dalawa ni Benj ang reasons kung bakit ako sumali ng Allstar... To have new journey with them. And personally, I consider him as one my closest friends here... Then I'll read na may doubts pala siya... I hope he'll make it clear. Anyway, alam ko namang magiging maayos ito immediately, knowing Charles... He's openminded...

So ayun lang muna bbk for now... Ciao!

WEEK 4 - DAY TWENTY-EIGHT
Kashen confesses: I missed my PAOPAO

+_Y gud day bbk..hmf..may penalty points na naman akho..harhar..hindi xa ok..niweiz nid tangapin coz d ko namn tlaga na update confession and diary kho... ..bout sa pag quit ni JOMAR maybe nga napuno na xa but sna naintindhan nya din ung kalagayan ni sis MATS..d buh..?! well i understand bata a kc xa khit pinipilit nya mging mature nha..^^

+_^ ryt now..i missed evrything start sa mga ex-classmtes kho sa st.scho..kinda excited yet nkakatkot sa new enviroment ng papsukan kho sa CSB..new pipz na nid pkisamahan..harhar..kung sa bagay snay na naman akho sa mga ganyan..aytie..

+_^ next bbk i missed my PAOPAO.. medyo mtagal na din kming hindi nkakapgusap.. 24 hours na actually! hmf.. para sa kin matagl na ung 24 hours na yon kc naman kagbi sabi kho lng kay sis MATS catnap lng akho..but naktulog na akong ng tuloy tuloy..hmf..i hate myself!harhar...

Godbless to all..hmf! =p

Your update is a combo of confession-diary-confession. Starting today, magbibigay na ako ng penalty sa maling updates.

"It feels good when you are with your most trusted friends" -Mica

After posting my diary entry yesterday, Kenjo, Tin and I went to Starbucks at Promenade Mall. Yep, My treat!

It feels good when you are with your most trusted friends. Kenjo had been there with me thru thick and thin since high school. We became "Ka-TOKS" nung seatmates kami dati sa Rutherford. Never expected this friendship since she's a bit boyish and I'm a bit weird back then haha

She keeps on teasing me because of my failure of not studying here in Manila. I took the UPCAT and SLU entrance exams and luckily, I passed. Unluckily, my dad did everything to stop me on pursuing my dream to study outside Dagupan. Now I know why.

Went to Manila Memorial to visit my Dad and some of my relatives. Parang Kailan lang kasama ko rin siyang nagtitirik ng Kandila para sa mga lolo't lola niya. Ngayon, siya na ang inaalalayan ko ng bulaklak, kandila at mga panalangin. My Dad died at Age 40 due to Aneurysm. Most of my friends and relatives were feeling sorry for me back then. Thanks to their support and I was able to move on easily and continue with my life..

Ayan na naman nagiging EMO na naman ako.

Mica confesses: Namimiss ko na rin conference with the other virtual housemates

Nakita ko na yung mga lapida ng mga kapwa ko VHMS. In fairness ang cute! parang hindi kami takot lahat mamatay lol

Kuya, bakit hindi pa nakapost kikay lapida ko? Nakalagay nga po siya sa MS WORD with the image. Sent a Pm na po inupload ko na lang po sa geocities. Good thing I have it saved sa sent items

May penalty points pala ako Too bad I hope someone will save me again

I am having long telebabad talks with my ate trish and ate mats. Sana makapag-usap din sila wala lang

Namimiss ko na rin conference with the other virtual housemates

Mukhang busy ang lahat sa kani-kanilang mga buhay. Gotta go! ciao


Nasa MS Word yung Lapida mo. You sent your Lapida photo after the deadline.

"Sana wala akong ibagsak, para maka-graduate na ako" -Charles

Woosh! Nakapag-enroll na din ako. Starting Nov. 2, start na ng regular semester. This is my schedule;

MTh 7:00-8:30 Kasaysayan ng Relihiyon
MTh 8:30-10:00 Introduction to Curriculum
MTh 11:30-1:00 Buhay at Katha ni Rizal

TF 7:00-8:30 World Literature
TF 8:30-10:00 Isyu sa Kasaysayan ng Pilipinas
TF 10:00-11:30 Anthropology

Itong semester na ito ay ang last semester ko na sa pag-aaral sa kolehiyo. Sana wala akong ibagsak, para maka-graduate na ako.

Charles confesses: Kung sa tingin ko, halat ng mga VH ay galit sa akin, at tapos, wala namang magco-comfort sa akin, malamang na ganun na din ang gagawin ko.

BBK... gusto ko lang pong magreact sa sinabi ni Gee sa kanyang confession... Sinabi ko last season na ang pinakatrusted kong VH sa lahat ng S3 ay si Gee. And I know, that sometimes we had some misunderstandings. Yung tinanong mo, kung pinagkakatiwalaan ko pa din sila. Opo. Pinagkakatiwalaan ko pa din sila. At siguro nga, mas lalo ko pa dapat ibigay ang pagtitiwala na iyon, dahil sila ang mga pinakamahusay na manlalaro sa loob ng bahay na ito. Sila din ang mga naging kaibigan ko dito.

Kung sila ang hindi nagtitiwala sa akin, dapat na din siguro na sumunod na ako kay Jomar. Maaaring isang katarantaduhan ito, pero ito lang naman ang alam kong tamang gawin.

Tungkol naman sa pag voluntary exit ni Jomar. Hindi ko siya masisisi. Kung sa tingin ko, halat ng mga VH ay galit sa akin, at tapos, wala namang magco-comfort sa akin, malamang na ganun na din ang gagawin ko. Pero sana pinag-isipan na din ni Jomar ang desisyon niya. Pero alam kong tama ang desisyon ni Jomar dahil sa tingin niya yun ang tama.

Paolo and Jomar's activity

Here is my lapida, BBK. Nung una tlga ayoko gumawa nyan nakakatakot kasi tpos ilalagay pa ung date kung kelan ka mamamatay. Pero naisip ko sayang ung 2 evicting points kaya gumawa n rin ako. Naglagay ako ng pictures ko tpos ung year na mamamatay ako 2099. Ang tagal no hehe. Ung mga words dun na " Isip bata..." si Gee nag-isip nun and thanks ah. Ung tungkol naman sa ngiti gusto ko malaman ng tao na kahit ano mngyari smile is the best way para makalimutan ang problems sa buhay.

The Things I want to accomplish:
~I want to be part of American Idol. Kahit hindi panalo ok lng. pero if I win that would be sooo good.
~I want to have my own CD's hehe.
~I will buy house for my mom, dad, my madeng, brother, & sister.
~I will buy a mansion for myself
~I want to have a 1year vacation with SnK.
~I want to have quality time with the church people in the Philippines and the church people here.
~I'll have my 21st Birhday na may big, big party
~I want to marry the love of my life.
~I want to have 5 kids.
~I wanna meet everyone inside the Virtual House. Including BBK.
~I wanna build a church, with all the people I love helping me.
~Lastly, I wanna pray before I take my last breath and say Thank You to God for a very wonderful life.

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Ako ay gumawa ng isang napakasimpleng lapida. Nais kong simple lang ang aking pagkamatay. Ang gusto ko lang ay masaya ang buhay ng aking asawa at mga anak kapag iwan ko sila at dapat ay mayroon na silang sariling negosyo, pamilya at kabuhayan.

"Kung ano pa yung hindi pinaghandaan, yun pa yung masaya!" -Gee

Finally, after 48 years ( hehe... exag lang!)

I really missed my highschool classmates... as in sobrah!!!

And this trip, actually I'm expecting some peepz to come na hindi dumating BUT may dumating na UNEXPECTED...

You just don't know how happy I am to see them, kasi almost 6 months na ata kaming hindi lumalabas because busy kami sa aming college life... and love life... wahahaha...

Natutuwa naman ako kasi kung ano pa yung hindi pinaghandaan, yun pa yung masaya! I'm not saying na boring yung pinaghandaang trip... pero kasi last night, hindi kami masyadong prepared in terms of budget kasi akala ng iba, we'll just go to church ( nax! religious.. teka, gee? statue? nagsisimba pala ako? haha! ).. buti na lang jobel was there to save our nights! hahaha...

So ayun... I'll make a more detailed entry about that sa blog ko...

"I can feel the fresh mist of air called L.O.V.E." -Maristel

He calls me "baby"... I call him "bee"...
Eewwness me...
Do I really have to be this sweet... Sweet more in a way - that's not me...
Terms of endearment thingies...
Well, more about him on my blog...

Guess, just missed him tonight. He's on his way exploring islands and sands of Waikiki and now's just my time to remember and thought of him...

Hehe... Is this really me? I don't think so... Guess, I'm now more open for a relationship na... That might be the "THING" I've been missing all this time... Now, doors and windows are open for I can feel the fresh mist of air called L.O.V.E.

DAY TWENTY-SEVEN
This week's reward and penalty points

Maristel and Gee got 3 saving points each for winning The 2nd Battle. Kashen got 2 saving points as VH of the Week.

Five ASVHs were rewarded for their blog updates. Gee and Maristel received 2 saving points while Charles, Kenneth, and Mica received 1 saving point each.

Kashen and Marge received 4 evicting points for not updating their Diary and Confession thread this week. Kenneth, Rommel and Ian each earned 2 evicting points for not confessing or making a diary entry this week.

Four ASVHs did not participate in this weeks activity. Charles, Ian, Kenneth and Rommel each received 2 evicting points. Winner of Lapida activity will get 3 saving points.

Mica, Kashen and Paolo got 2 evicting points for discussing a guest's post on Oct 26, 2006, 11:41am:

Mica: sino naman si blue?
Lil_kashen02 Mendez: hay nako
dyan na nga kayo..hmf..gutom na tlag akho..><>
Pao-pao: mica
Pao-pao: anong blue? Mica: yung fan ko na naman ata
Mica: kakakita ko lang
Lil_kashen02 Mendez: harhar..
Pao-pao: hala
Pao-pao: naks
Pao-pao: lyricist and bue
Mica: sana musician na lang ginamit nun
Mica: para MUSICA haha
Mica: naks
Lil_kashen02 Mendez: harhar

Gee and Ian got 2 evicting points for visiting the game blog and talking about it.

(Oct 26, 2006, 7:17pm)
Gee Ahne Kathrene Giray: hahaha... bbk? what's with the new post!
Gee Ahne Kathrene Giray: well well well...
pbbfantasygame: what post?
Gee Ahne Kathrene Giray: How did ASVHs vote?
pbbfantasygame: so you visited the blogsite?
pbbfantasygame: what did I tell you
Gee Ahne Kathrene Giray: okay... i'm sorry!
Gee Ahne Kathrene Giray: evicting points for me...

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(Oct 28, 2006, 8:10pm)
ian: bbk!
BigBad Kuya: what!
ian: bat mo di sinali ata codename ko sa final tally (benjfix) wala dun eh!
ian: pansin ko lang
BigBad Kuya: nandun
BigBad Kuya: saan?
ian: ung pinakarecent mong tally!
BigBad Kuya: nan dun
ian: wala nga sabi
BigBad Kuya: patingin nga
ian: eto title.. How did ASVHs vote?
BigBad Kuya: what did i tell you
ian: huh?
BigBad Kuya: you cant discuss anything n nsa blog
ian: no not that one
ian: ung tally mo entitled How did ASVHs vote?
BigBad Kuya: yes
ian: alis nako kuya

Maristel confesses: Parang because of t EB na di siya napuntahan, THAT PERSON WILL MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE

Mahirap po pala talaga ngayon dito sa All-Star... Some do think that there's some kind of an alliance... Also, got an info that there maybe some housemates na may target na for the next nomination... Someone spilled it... But, I don't know how true that person might be saying. Coz, there has been a lot of UNEXPECTED THINGS that happened here. I may have been close to someone before, knowing that being friends with that person, knowing that in some points I'll see what really is beneath those words and that person's being depth and all.

To those, who's thinking that I am against them or have this things against them, iniisip niyo lang yun. I just never thought that this game will be so sensational. I don't know... I've known someone here BBK that I considered my closest... But as days go by... That person is starting to scare me... BBK, to be honest, yes. I really did want to join this All Star. But, the first few days during the registration, I can't get through the boards - till I knew from Gee, that Day 01 has started already. And it was a fellow VH from my season was the one who registered for me here. So since, I was chosen, I just did my part the way I have to be.

There has been a lot of ambiguous things that happened the first 26 days. I'm happy that I am already building rapport with the other VHs as well... But if there's one thing that TRIGGERED ME THE MOST, was being judged! Siguro BBK, you know what I'm saying... Kaya lang po, ang di ko lang malaman, bakit ganun ang tao na yun. Yes, matalino sya... Kanina po, that person was kindda harassing one of my fellow VH. Mean things were said to that person. Naaawa ako sa kanya. Yung tao na yun, I understand concern siya sa akin and all. Kaya lang, dahil sa concern niya na MISINTERPRET sya. Yung isa po, walang ginawa kundi iJudge sya ng iJudge...

There's nothing wrong na minsan, maawa ka sa sarili mo, kaya lang... That person has been overdoing it. Kindda irritating na. Kindda more like seeking for attention. Yeah, may NAASAR, may NABANAS sa akin for not showing up or returning their calls or replying to their messages. THAT'S MY BAD... But, I think COLLAPSING to the extent that all parts of your body was so cold and numb, PROPER PO BA NA UNAHIN ng PINSAN KO, na SINISISI din ng taong yun, why my cousin can't text or reply...

He asked my friend to talk to me. I did texted the concerned housemate and said CALL ME... And then, there was it. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganito... Na sobrang nanginginig ako sa galit... I said, PAKINGGAN MUNA NIYA AKO... WHAT I HAVE TO SAY... PATAPUSIN NIYA AKO MAGSALITA... Sabi niya LISTEN DAW SYA... I do admit it...

CATHARSIS - releasing all your pent up emotions....

That's what I did. I just released all the painful things and stuffs that - that person told me! More like, and most likely that person is harassing me. Calling our house and not answering... Even used other people's name. Ako, BBK okay lang makipag usap sa akin. Maiintindihan ko. May kasalanan din ako... Alam ko... PERO SA NEGOSYO KO, UNPREDICTABLE ANG MAGIGING TIME TABLE KO... IT'S NOT ALWAYS A HOLIDAY. PASKO, BAGONG TAON nga may event kami. Sa BUSINESS NAMIN... Wala akong personal life... Wala akong social life... Social life, meaning gimmicks and night outs with friends. Kaya ako, looking forward ako dito sa ALL STAR, but if there's anyone or anybody ang mag aASSUME and mag aAccuse sa akin na PLASTIK, MANLOLOKO ako. Malaking kalokohan. I'm very much willing to spend the money I have na pwede kong ibigay na lang sa Mom or sa kapatid ko who's in need, pero, I would much rather spend it to people whom I've made a promise way back MAY...

And another BBK, if that person really wants to straight things up with me... Sana lahat ng mabasa niya and mabasa niya sa CHAT or call namin, sana naman maintindihan niya. Pero hindi. Mas naiintindihan niya sarili niya. Pati business ko, ipapamukha niya sa akin why nagCancel ang client ko last Wednesday...

BBK, I just have to be TRUE HERE... I handled this event called FASHION FOR PASSION for 4 weeks. The first 3 weeks costs them 60 thousand pesos. They issued check payments. Hanggang sa dumating ang bagyong Milenyo. Di ko na naipasok sa Bangko. For the 4th week na may Fashio Show ulit. Tsaka na dumating ang problema. The following week, I deposited the first check amounting 17,390 pesos. When I got this call from my bank, na CLOSED ACCOUNT na... The 4th event costs 25 thousand pesos. Hindi biro, magpakain ng 12 crew. Na mag assemble ng stage (bumili ng bakal, plywood, pintura + the labor, lodging and food not to mention ang sweldo ng karpintero). Ang isang crew 600 minsan ang bigay namin. Ang pinapakain pa sa kanila, di malaman na pagkain.

Pero, ang di ko maintindihan, bakit yung taong "ITO" di malaman. Ako pa ngayon ang manloloko... BBK, there has been a lot of obscene and foul words ang nagamit niya! Lahat yun, nilunok ko, tinanggap ko... OO, dahil alam ko, may iba na nagtampo din. Pero, sana naman wag na siyang magmura at kung anu ano pang kasiraan ang sinasabi niya at pinagsisigawan niya sa buong mundo. Parang because of t EB na di siya napuntahan, THAT PERSON WILL MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE... Wag naman sana ganun BBK. Alam ko BBK, may housemate that you once banned sa Board. Pero, iba na po ang issue niya. Minsan, I would rather give myself a lot of sleep kesa naman sa ginagawa niya sa akin. Sinabi niya pa kanina, wag ko daw iFLOOD ang YM niya. To be frank, IT WAS THAT PERSON WHO FLOODED MY YM WITH MESSAGES - and MOST WERE REALLY BELOW THE BELT NA. Pati mga taong di nya kilala, jinuJudge niya na. Kung mangmura, wala pasakit... WALANG LIMITATIONS. Nakakasakit na... Masyadong BRUSKO, ang mapagmalaki. That person might be studying from a prestigious school. He may be brought up well by his parents... Pero, ganun din ako. Di man ako nag UP, LA SALLE, ATENEO, pero hindi itinuro sa akin at di ko naging ugali ang MAWALAN NG RESPETO at GALANG sa mga nakatatanda. Hindi ako nag JUDGE ng tao to the extent na sinisira ko na pagkatao ng isang tao. LAHAT KAMI, TAO LANG DITO, MARUNONG DIN MASAKTAN. PERO SOBRA SOBRA NA, BBK...

Maristel blogs: NEVER ASSUME

Life's a stage... Sheesh... lolx... Just a bunch of my vivid moments... Life at it's best"est" and worst, everrrr But still, writings won't differ to who and what I really am... It isn't deceiving but just PLAIN and AU NATURELLE, mOi... > xoxo < mwaaaHugggZz mwahness... hugs"ness" cuteness coolness... CHILLness MEEH...
NEVER ASSUME
If there's one word that I will never use in a certain situation... It would be the word "assume"

Some may use it as frequent as they can... Like:

"assuming lang naman..." "inassume na niya agad..." "kasi i assumed na..." blah blah-blah! Well... So worn out na yang word na yan. Before, for me, it's like you assume things to happen... assume that this guy or girl likes you din...

There's this guys who taught me his definition of the word "ASSUME". He's a close friends and for once I kindda fancy him *lolx* hmf! Well, I guess, when I was on the stage of liking him, I kindda assumed din... So there you go...

The meaning... "ASS" so he said, it was like, I'm making an ass or sh*t between "U" and "ME"... So have you figured it out? Well, i didn't find it hard figuring things out. So there goes the word "ass" and linked with "u" and "me"

Most likely... IT IS TRUE... It's as easy as saying, we're more of assuming things instantly and not think about it... That's how it happened. More like, you were neveer really together as a couple but in the other end, you were like hanging into someone you know, you will never really have. I don't know, a simple word yet I'm just making it complicated.

But true to what happened and what will happen, I've always said not to assume things na lang. Coz in the mere end, I might end up in pain or hurting coz I assumed things way out of my league. Simple as, "Feeling mo kayo na, pero di naman pala..." Right?

Well, just sharing another thought... *winks* If you can't agree with me, fine... We all are but individuals here and have differences... aytee?

Now... I don't want to miss some thing here... CHRIS... You're now exploring the sand of Waikiki right? Well, have fun! Ikaw naman, you do assume things always. DON'T... *lolz* hmf! Ganyan ka naman... Wala pa man, minsan may meaning na for you. Just want to say, thanks for bringing me the real and true meaning of "SORRY". We have let days passed and you know not even giving our little "hi's or hello's", well it really is hard when you've had some misunderstandings with someone who's close to your heart... I once asked you, if I'm just gullible or just really felt the sincerity... Well, to be frank... I felt it somewhere, and that made you, special. I once told you that if there's one person who's getting on my nerves right now, it would be some BS who brought the hell outta me, but WE'RE QUITE... Right? *winks* If there's one person who made me sad, it's you pa din. Well... You just sweet or just missing you... Nobody cares! *lolx* hmf! I've said enough! Aloha lang ako... harhar! t'care piolo!

x's: siraulo ka!!! di ka naman PIOLO noh... the floor, i guess? *lolz* peace... hmmwaaahuggz na lang!!! enjoy!