Maristel confesses: I never asked for sympathy from other people... I never called for help

Hi BBK, malapit na nga po talaga ang pagtatapos... Kumbaga sa school malapit ng maganap ang Commencement Excercise or ang Graduation... Nakakakaba na masaya... Masaya kasi after a long, long time eh, All-Star Edition has come to it's end... End in a way na malapit na po matapos ang DAY 100... End, in a sense na, no more activities... No more group battles...

And I hope, tapos na din po ang mga ISSUES na pepwedeng pag-umpisahan ng di magandang samahan... I don't want to become emotional actually... But, truly and deep inside I know na there really are some "who didn't like me" for who I am (I guess), for being TRUE to everyone else... Di ko din po alam kung talagang napakarami ng mga unfinished issues ko here... Minsan, napapaisip na lang po tuloy ako na... "Ano kaya yung maaari kong nagawa for them not to like me...”

Basta po ako, everything that I have done... Lahat ng ipinakita kong UGALI... Kung anuman ang mga iyon... May it be GOOD or BAD... God knows, lahat ng iyon... TRUE TO ONE'S SELF... Ayaw ko sa plastik... At ayaw kong magpakaPlastik... Just before the Judgment Day, I just want to clarify things... Kung mayroon man akong nasaktan - I am deeply sorry for that BBK... Kung kayo din po in a way, nasaktan ko din, from the bottom of my heart - I say sorry... Kung mayroon man po akong napasaya... Kung sumaya or napatawa ko man sila, sana po maFeel nila yung feeling ko na “DOBLE ang NARARAMDAMAN kong happiness for them coz I cheered them up in a way...” In some points, kung may naapakan man po akong pagkatao, which I know wala naman po, my heartfelt sorry still...

Since Day 001 naman po, ang alam ko nga po, hindi pa nagstart ang Game... Natutuwa ako and I appreciate the efforts that Trish showed me... The one message that Gee sent me, all of those were appreciated... I know kahit di pa man nagstart ang All-Star, naFeel ko na po na sis Gee is a leader... Naaalala ko pu yung message niya sa akin...

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Also got a few message from (Ate) Trish... na nakakaflatter naman po, eventhough di pa man nag start ang game eh talaga naman pong todo exert na ng effort for the All-Star... Naging busy lang po ako kaya iilan lamang po sa mga message sa akin ni (Ate) Trish ang nareplyan ko... Di man po ako ang nagRegister for myself and a co-VH from Season 2 pa po whish is Jen-Jen ang nagRegister sa akin, still...

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my first and last reply to (Ate) Trish...

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I am super thankful and grateful na nagJoin ako dito... Di ko nga lang po alam na magiging ganito ka-controversial ang All-Star... I was just trying to go back and reading all the Confessions I made for the past months... I read some from the other co-VHs din... Marami ang sobrang natawa ako... Meron ding certain confession from Paolo na sobrang na-Touch ako... Kaya thinking of all the things that happened... I don't think rather never considered na nakabangga ko si Pao... He's one of my closest ever here sa Virtual House... Nagkaroon man kami ng UPS and DOWNS, kasama yun sa friendship eh... Not an added spice, but definitely a part of FRIENDSHIP so to speak... I guesss, you can't call it friendship without misunderstandings... Same goes with Gee and me... Madami din kami naging misunderstandings here... One was regarding the direct address rule which was not really clear to me, that I even got to the extent of thinking that I'm so super stupid not to understand a simple rule... Silly, right? But that didn't end there... Nagkaroon din ng kung anu-ano pang bagay na nabahiran ng kulay which I think is too much that it greatly affect our friendship... But of course, kung sobrang babaw lang namin and immature not to think of reasons and stuffs - I guess wala na yung friendship na nabuo namin... I value that friendship and so I won't let rumors or gossip to destroy the bond that connects us... Katulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi,,, All's well that ends well... Lahat naman nadadaan sa matinong usapan... Why make things complicated right... Minsan naman complicated na others would make it complex... And I don't want my life to be masalimuot here... Kaya nga andito ako... Kaya nga inenjoy ko ang pagStay here... To protect and save the FRIENDSHIP na pwedeng might be in danger and will cause to break...

Basta BBK, masaya po ako for whatever UPS and DOWNS ang napag-daanan ko... I never asked for sympathy from other people... I never called for help... Kapag nagkaroon ng problems or discussions, I sometimes found myself alone sa CONFERENCES and defending my comrades... And when I say comrade, I mean friends... Like the issue with the Forced Evictee, Benj... My first telebabad mate and the one who quitted the game, Jomar... Dun sa isang tao na unang conversation pa lang eh natuwa na dahil feeling niya marami akong alam, and that's Charles po BBK... For he reacted sa Pirated CD issue, I won't keep quiet po and I know ALL OF US ARE UNIQUE and we're not pirated here... We're all ORIGINAL in our own way and that's what made us DIFFERENT from EACH OTHER and that's how PINOY is... My long time buddy and and life long companion Paolo... And the recent and the friend I find in Gee... I've always been a fighter and I don't want to see a friend of mine in a situation na nasasaktan and all, ayaw ko po yung manahimik lang ako... I might as well be heard and let it all out... Ganun po ako eh...

For those na di pa din naniniwala sa whatever that I can do... Sa di pa din nakakakilala sa akin ng lubusan, di ko po sila masisisi... For those naman po na di ako “feel” - okay lang po sa akin... Coz, I can't let everybody or everyone to like me... Basta po, masaya po ako...

So for the nth time BBK... I wanna thank you for everything... The experiences... The lessons learned... Those are a few that I say I'm most proud of and never regretted that for once in life's journey I passed by and walked on...