"Dati sabik na sabik ako pagdating sa school activities pero recently parang nawawalan ako ng gana" -Mica

I am still sick haha Nakalaklak na ako ng ilang galon ng tubig at dalandan juice pero hindi pa rin nawawala ang aking ubo't sipon

Dapat kasama ako sa Christmas Outreach Program ng lahat ng orgs sa school but I opted not to go. Why? Because I just don't feel like going. Dati sabik na sabik ako pagdating sa school activities pero recently parang nawawalan ako ng gana. Eto ba ay may kinalaman sa naging "gap" ko sa ibang USG members? I dunno..

I was browsing in my Multiply account yesterday and scanned the albums with their faces in it. I really miss them.. I really do! There are times na gusto ko silang lapitan pero parang naiilang ako. Siguro dahil meron nang mga bagong taong tumatambay doon ngayon. Napansin ko din ang isang change sa isang tao na ikinalungkot ko. Dati he never failed to inform me sa mga important details sa org pero ngayon parang he doesn;t even care about us anymore. Sana naman hindi ganon. I want to talk to them pero hindi ko alam paano i-initiate.

Honestly, I am disappointed when i found out what happened in the "meeting" a month ago. Pinili ko nung una na hindi magpaapekto pero nasaktan ako sa binigay sa akin na info ng isang friend and it did really break my heart.

I guess one month is enough to heal the pain in our hearts.. I want to reconcile not because It's Christmas time, pero more on I want to save the FRIENDSHIP we had (and i hope we still "have" that one) dahil I spent the whole first semester with you guys and 85% of it was worthwhile. If you will read my ********* related entries, makikita ko how much i treasured every moment we spent together: The Campain, the Concerts, The Rooftop, The Beach, The Office Moments, Mochachinno, Kropek, Japanese Food, Muyot, BEER (hehe joke mama hindi ako uminom weee), the sleepover - GOD I MISS THESE MOMENTS! No matter how I try to not think about every single member, wala eh bumabalik pa rin. I treated some of you as my own brothers and sisters - i know you also did. I hope it's not yet late to have a talk sometime.